Study for magic suit (name undecided)

to build the neighborhood
where his house would sit
a giant hole
for all the rain to gather
the crane's that dug it
so deep and tall
could not be gathered or salvaged
abandoned in that great hole
they hit a giant spring
and hole filled right up
with crystal clear water
crane in a watery grave
from our dock it could be seen quite clear
30 feet below the surface
once old enough to swim
would swim down toward the great beast
just to touch the tip was the dare
then we became older and more bold
and stronger and we swam deeper
a deeper plunge to touch the cabin
where the worker once sat
and deeper still
to momentarily peer through the window
noticed something left behind
appeared to be a briefcase
left behind by the crew
had to abandon the crane quite quick
training every day
improve breath holding
efforts to oepn the cab door
final effort to grab the case
almost passing out
bringing the case to the surface
open on the dock.

cross-section of life right now

at this moment I'm at Buddy Brew Coffee
the Mecca of hippsters in Tampa
once again peering out the window watching the cars go by
looking for some inspiration to write
just dropped off the girls at three different schools
Ali was greeter at the lower division
she will stay for chapel with Camila
I wasn't prepared and didn't shower
hair looks like Gary Busey after a coke binge
and can't wear a hat into chapel
it's disrespectful
so here I am
and there they are
and so it goes

Tonight is stone crab fest at the yacht club
should be a raucous good time
we'll spend a bunch of money we don't have
and figure it out later
standard protocol these days

Am I having a midlife crisis?
kinda feels like it sometimes
longing for something
but not quite sure what it is
drinking every night to quiet it all down
in some moderation of course
but still enough to hurt my stomach
wife's not too pleased about that
can't blame her
neither am I

I would love to feel inspired again
period

I wonder if I have a book in me?
do I have the dedication?
cause it's hard work
otherwise everybody would do it
right?
If it lousy, so what?
I still did it.

Ok.
Start writing tomorrow.
Diet starts tomorrow.
Cut back booze tomorrow.
LOL!